#100 – 100415

100 days, woooooooo.

My “daily” updates have been anything but for the last couple of weeks, and I’ve resorted to a weekly batch of posts at once, which is frustrating. I’m frustrated mostly because I don’t feel like I have much to share at the moment, at least photo-wise. There’s always a good old text post though, so here we go!

We’re about to move to Amsterdam, so most of our thoughts have been focussed on getting ourselves ready to relocate to a third country in six months. I’d be lying if I said it wasn’t exhausting, but at least we have a fresh mental checklist to go through this time. Amsterdam has been beckoning for a few months now, and with that in mind I’ve been working on a job search from here in Germany, which hasn’t been easy. It feels like pulling teeth at the best of times, and a plastic bag over my face at the worst, so I have to be careful not to lose my mind.

Things will get easier once we’re in Amsterdam, I hope. With a hundred reasons to send an application through the “auto reject” machine, being in a different isn’t helping my chances. Being a jaded engineer unsure of my worth isn’t helping either, but at least that I can fake a little!

Funemployment is anything but sometimes, and the most valuable thing I’ve received form the past six months has been a growth in my self-discipline (despite what my ragged post schedule might indicate!). By forcing myself to get outside, to exercise, to set goals, to learn new skills, I’m warding off the spectre of procrastination that has haunted me for a long time. My comfort zone is definitely a safe place, but I’m trying hard to make sure that I’m pushing the walls of that comfort zone out instead of letting them collapse in on me.

Once we’re in Amsterdam, and a job finds me and we’re settled into normality again, I do think it will be a different normality. I think I’ll have changed for the better, with a bit more fire and drive to go after what I want, with a bit more purpose to find fulfilment as often as I can, and with a lot more self discipline to be sure I’m doing the right things to make me and my spot in this world a better, less insane place.